Can you believe that at this point of the devotional, we are already at November 21, 2018? We had our visit with John’s specialist and surgeon and both of them recommended that his entire colon be removed. Oh dear Lord, I prayed, that is so drastic!  Lord, You have to show us the way and give us wisdom to make the right decisions as this is a permanent “fix.”  We knew that once the large intestine is removed, there is no turning back.   

How we needed guidance in making this most difficult decision!  I lifted my heart and soul to my Heavenly Father praying: Lord, please show us what to do!

Once again I found myself sitting by the window and watching God’s beautiful creation. This Thanksgiving was to be very different from any other Thanksgiving Day in my past. There was no physical rest to be had. I’m an early bird and wake up no later than 6:00 a.m. I’m thankful for that because this is the only moment  I really have to spend time with the Lord and be by myself without caring for John. Caregivers have to take advantage of their alone time as much as possible. I was told multiple times by family and friends that I needed to take care of myself as well. Little did I know at the time that this was wise counsel. I felt myself physically and emotionally starting to drag. The only good thing about my personal life was that I was drawing closer to the Lord. 

But, on this Thanksgiving morning, I was in desperate need of a hug from the Lord!  John was so sick and frail. He cried in pain and anguish and I felt so very helpless!  Oh how I wanted to take this trial away from him! I truly would have been happy to carry that burden for my beloved!  All of a sudden, what I saw from my living room window was God reaching down to me! I’d only seen this squirrel once before.  He answered my prayer by sharing His beautiful creation! An Albino squirrel is quite rare and HE shared it with me! Oh how He loves you and me!!!  God lifted my spirit that day and gave me the spiritual energy to carry on with my mission. 

Thank You, Lord, for your endless grace! 2 Cor. 3-4;  “Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort; Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.”

We had been invited to join our dear friends for Thanksgiving dinner at Columbia Grill in Manassas Park. At this point, John had lost a good 40 pounds.  I was praying that the bountiful meal he was about to experience would energize him. This picture was taken at that meal and it truly shows the weight loss! It just did not look like my husband 🙁 I recall thinking how empty he appeared. His whole life revolved around pain and he tried so hard to enjoy the moment. Most foods tasted salty, although they weren’t. His taste buds just did not want to cooperate that day. I asked the doctors about this and they had no clue as to why he was experiencing this symptom. My husband has always been “the exception to the rule.”  Normally, medications list a whole slew of side effects and the average patient won’t experience any, or maybe just one.  But John, on the other hand, would and even invent one or two of his own. 

That’s why being a caregiver can be such a challenge.  I never knew what the day would have in store. I could not even trust in doctors or their prescribed medications because I knew that John was not the “typical” patient. I have to admit, it was very frustrating.  My sons and I would be encouraged by the doctor’s comments of how great this new medication was and how it could really help John.  Then a week or so later, he was not feeling any better and the wind was, once again, taken out of our sails. ***Sigh***  I am so thankful that God has me in the palm of His hand and knows exactly what I need, when I need it!  I trust in Him to do the same for my precious husband. 

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